A.H.'s Random Doodle

Ya, i haven't really been here for so long.. and keeps forgetting my password.. I will try to be on more now! I really need to communicate with others more >0<
I recently got a wordpress blog as well. Feel free to visit me.
http://www.arilishia.com/blog

I will write more about stuff.. later. >D -runs off-

Just a scary thought that everyone's moving on and I seem to be the only one stuck there in the same time. My friends, whether online or rl, seem to change and make new friends. It felt distant... and scary when they say they'll meet friends I haven't heard of before. How do you define a friend anyways? Are those I met these past few monthes are my new friends? On what basis should I call others friends?

I am just glad no one reads my LJ.

is it always i rant on my journals? X.x;

the midterm yesterday was not hard but little time to finish. *curses whoever made up the midterm* i practically cant move my arm after finishing it. And i realized I got one question wrong, which is 2 marks off

then the next midterm is psychology, which is worse... since all the teacher talked about was about the brain and it's functions... dude i did not purposly not take biology in high school! @.@ i can't not take it memorizing each parts (frontal lobe...hypa-something) their functions.. their diseases and what drugs to take to cure it or who discovers bleh bleh blah @@;;;

my co-op on the other hand... is going extremely unwell.... which makes me to start to wonder if i'll get a job next term @@;;; but..... i am planning to see my advisor... argh

I am also beginning to doubt if taking math is what i want. but then, there's nothing else i would actually want to take, other than art. But i feel like such a dumbass in there due to ppl i met are super smart... which makes me beginning to feel i chose the wrong major/university.

on the other hand... i am beginning to feel more and more like failure since i have not been able to compelete any project i set out to do..... like my manga, my art, my site, the only thing i completed was finish playing VP: lenneth...... which is not relavent since the feeling of accomplish can only be enjoyed when the end flashes and it is gone again...

speaking of manga, i am hoping that i would acutally getting on my lazy ass and start do something about it... meanwhile, I am talking with a friend of friend of mine and we want to start something together... hopefully that won't be one of my failure...

lately..... i have dreamt alot about going back to magee and play in the band. I wonder what that suggest to me? since everytime i wake up i feel sad. Maybe i want to get back to be able to play in the band due to i haven't really touched my flute or is it something else? I also have constant dreams of seeing friends in high school... and everytime i woke up i have the feeling i lost something important.... which makes me want to go back to msn or such and talk with others, friends i have met before...

also, i keep having the urge to draw characters i created before and want to look for things i enjoyed doing in the past and try to pick up them again. maybe i am escaping reality but hopefully i am not in depression.

ummm ya i will try to be more active... lotsa thing has passed since last time i posted...
i can't believe i am in university now O.o;; man... five years of hell. since i got co-op

and i miss ppl T^T i need to get on msn soon too ~~;;;

post a reply? X.x; <3

wuhah i want pictures of my fav OC and original manga chars! i'm looking for range 2-5k on gaia...or art trade ^_^ PM me if interested (name is arilishia or linyee is ok) sorry but I am picky!
current art trade:
wolfwraith - lineart done
shadow - lineart done
tingtingxueke - havent started
brenji - havent started

art recieved:
commission brenji: love this one (darryl)

Reference:
Darryl - 1 2
he has dark blue hair and dark blue eyes! you can draw him in any pose/clothing is fine with me
more info go read the manga here: Two Sided

Linyee - 1
linyee can be drawn as a girl or guy! Linyee has green hair! (perfer light green) any color of eye, and any pose, i like cloth to be traditional chinese clothing, or close to it

more ref coming soon

Gift art are loved

woh havent been on livejournal for a long time! O_o

eh not dead contary to many think -.-'' just too busy to do anything or go online and chat
currently working my ass off on school work and trying to squeeze in time to do my online manga, yes! i finally decided to do it XP;;; i'll have the web up when i got 10 page or so done. *damn each page takes me over 4 hours* >.

oh ummm let's talk about the hawaii trip right now :3 yes...

i went on a little temper prob for a few days, i only yell cuz the three of them were not listening to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and wut happens they got angry at me? o.o *annoyed* seriously i wanna stab them...
spent quiet a while watching RO anime and japanese drama, the korean drama had no effect on me >.>;; i didnt buy alot of food, most of the time i depended on instant noodles XP... *yes cheapstake*
i wanna have this temperaroy tatoo, but then...too expensive and i have no money left. wut i found interesting is that almost everyone bought one XD
i didnt go near the water cuz it's quiet hot ... tho not as hot as china, it's still very hot, air condition is my buddy there XP
we watched quiet few bands and chior, the japanese band is awesome!
we did a dinner exchange sorta thing and met few ppl from U.S. and japan. but the japanese doesnt know alot of eng so it's bit hard to communicate but they were funner to talk to than the U.S. guys, maybe cuz we have more in common? XD;;;
ummm and then we did a band exchange XP yup yup, and the 2 piccolos are competing to see who play the loudest and hurts my ear so much XP;;;
one thing annoyed me is that...my principle brought all his family there, and i was talking to my friend jane when another classmate *i wont call him friend cuz he annoy the guts off me* came and drank straight from the principle's son's bottle, then we saw that principle drank it XP;; omfg ... so freaky XPPPPPPP;;;;
if you are wondering how we did in the festival, meep...we got silver....but ... with a mark of 75 and condersider that 5/10 bands outta there got gold our teacher is really sour XP;;; but it's not our fault cuz he cannot conduct o.O and seriously i'm not kidding, everyone in band hates him XP;;
i went to the zoo XP yep...and i forgot my water XDDDDD so i think i de-hydrated there XDDD but then i saw ice cream XD *life saver i tell ya* XD i think most of my food money got spent on ice cream lolz XD
oh also! i went to the peral harbor memorial center XP and got sea sick cuz of the movie and then going on a boat to see the ship, arizona i think that's wut was called. and like reallyyyy sea sick in 5 min ... pooey...
the view is really pretty in hawaii yup yup ;) i would go there again XD

then i came back with 3 days of spring break left, i spent one day on hwk, another on sleeping XD and the last day my cousin got married so i went to see them getting certificate as a witness XD;;;

and i'm really excited about sat where i'm gonna go for DA artists meet O_o yay yay *dances* mom fanially agreed to let me go! meep

anywho, i got new work on here my art blog XP;;; maybe i'll upload some here but i dont think so, just check under the march section XP;;;
omg it's april 2morrow O_o;

yup XP hawaii band festival...anyone gonna meet me there? :3

^^ yes like the title said ! i'll update a pic soon =\ hopefully

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== i got rants.....but too lazy to type

A survey thingy I stole from crystar from SA who stole it from someone else XD

Your name:: Alice
Height:: 1 m 67 cm
Natural hair colour:: black
Eye colour:: brown
Number of siblings:: 0.
Glasses/contacts?:: Nope.
Piercings:: None.
Tattoos:: Nope.
Braces?:: Nope.

FAVORITE

Colour:: blue, pink, black
Band:: w-inds
Song:: somewhere sometime *i think* by BoA
TV show:: none
Movie:: ~~ none, dont watch many movies
Book:: chasing red bird by sharron creech
Food:: anything meat XD
Game on a cell phone:: Dont have cell phone ==
Flower:: lilies, water-lily XD
Scent:: smell of my parents' cooking
Animal:: rabbit
Comic book:: manga counts? X_x''' archies =='''''''
Cereal:: none
Website:: ...too many to update ...
Cartoon:: anime? X_x teen titians and danny phantom, oh simpson too

DO YOU

Play an instrument?:: piano and flute
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: no...
Like to sing?:: only songs i like
Have a job?:: Nope.
Have a cell phone?:: Nope.
Like to play sports?:: skiing, batminton,
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no O_o'' not allowed till age 26
Have any special talents/skills?:: wah?
Exercise daily?:: No...dont think so...

CAN YOU

Sing the alphabet backwards?:: No O_o heck i cant sing it from the beginning to end
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: ? wah?
Speak any other languages?:: chinese and bit french...eng? XD
Go a day without food?:: ..no way!
Read music, not just tabs?:: no?
Roll your tongue?:: no
Eat a whole pizza?:: yes...if it smaller than a medium XD

HAVE YOU EVER

Snuck out of the house?:: no
Cried to get out of trouble?:: yup ^^;
Gotten lost in your city?:: ...no...
Seen a shooting star?:: no *_*
Been to any other countries?:: yup
Had a serious surgery?: when i was 5?? @_@
Stolen something important to someone else?:: eh..ya...=='''
Solved a rubiks cube?:: ?no...
Gone out in public in your pyjamas?:: Yeah, to friend's house XD
Cried over a girl?:: no
Cried over a boy?:: no
Kissed a random stranger?:: No, havent kissed anyone ==
Hugged a random stranger?:: No...
Been in a fist fight?:: oh ya XD
Been arrested?:: No! O_o
Done drugs?:: No. O_o hate druggies
Had alcohol?:: No...
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?:: eh hate milk
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: no...that would be stupid...
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: yes ==.
Swore at your parents?:: eh none i can think of
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: yes XD
Been in love?:: no O-o don't think so...=\
Been close to love?:: ...maybe
Been to a casino?:: yes...
Ran over an animal and killed it?:: O_O no!
Broken a bone?:: no idea, maybe i have but never checked
Gotten stitches?:: yup ^_^'''
Had a water balloon fight in winter?:: O.o no...
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: =\ no
Made home-made muffins?:: yup
Bitten someone?:: XD ya
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:: yup *_*
Been to niagra falls?:: No...

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...

funny?:: no
pretty?:: no.
sarcastic?:: when in bad mood X_x
lazy?:: Very.
hyper?:: eh sugar rush? XD
friendly?:: depends...dont talk to me when i'm angry
evil?:: ya? X-x'
smart?:: some say i am...but i dont know ==
strong?:: eh what do you count as strong?
talented?:: ...no...X_x
dorky?:: no...O_o'

WHAT COMES TO MIND WITH THE WORD

high:: fall
skip:: die
dance:: class
lonely:: dark
pen:: pencil
flower:: leaf
window:: glass
psycho:: me
brain freeze:: ice cream
orange:: fruit
sassy:: girl
vagina:: what?
sex:: girl
tattoo:: skull
art:: i suck...

WOULD YOU EVER

Sky dive?:: no O_o tho i think i did..
Play strip poker?:: no
Run away?:: maybe...
Curse at a teacher?:: did XD.
Not take a shower for a week?:: did XD
Ask someone out?:: no...
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: maybe...
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: did @_@
Go scuba diving?:: yes!
Write a book?:: did X_x
Become a rock star?:: no
Have casual sex?:: no...

LAST QUESTIONS

Ideal man?:: ...albel nox? X_x
What shampoo do you use?:: pantine *did i spell it right?*
When's the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?:: never...
What kind of computer do you have?:: sony...
What grade are you in?:: 11
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: no...
Or just make out?:: ==
How many posters do you have in your room?:: um 5 i think...

sick: car sick ><"''' been car sick for all day today cuz i went out with my mom's friend for boxing day XD and he drives very voilent :sweat: so i was sick all day...and still kinda right now.....>< head dizzy

happy: I got 2 new game and a CD today XD gonna play later

what makes me most happy today is my recieved an email from nihility *heart* omg i thought he fogot me for sure *sweat* I love talking to all my tibia friends *whee* I miss them soooo much *heart* I should get on icq sometime to talk to summer and thaigo =='''''

i saw bw-inc on gaia O_o' gotta save up for commission *sweat*

i thought it would be fun to post my names for other sites etc...tho some is pretty obvious ==''
girl name: lilymonhai, lilya, lilis, arilishia, sayumi
guy name: linyee, hikushe
*lilymonhai's the mostly used one =='' rest is my OC's name XD*

ok....going to sleep and trying to finish rest work lata...

i'm bac from the trip ... which was really boring... the only thing fun is i rode a horse and rode a ATV =='' the horse i was on was so violent ==''' it keeps kicking the horse my friend was on...and it almost kicked me too --''''' mom said that was the fun part =='' *cough*
i actually drove the ATV which was fun...except i have problem with controlling the speed.
the rest of the time i was playing my GBA...almost beat sora version of the kingdom hearts: chain of memories now...tho i think my lvl's too high ==''' currently 84...
i feel sick......maybe from car== but i'm not sure.....
mom and her friend is planning to go to seattle next week T_T i wanna stay at home T_T

ya...== newyays.......it's my xmas present ^_^ now i want kingdom hearts T_T *got kingdom hearts: chain of memories* the weird thing is there's no eng instruction O_______o only french X_x poo! my hand hurts from playing ==

project and test 2morrow =='' neways...i think i should get working.....

i'm doing commission on gaia again...weird part is that either i get alot of ppl or none at all =='' weird... *busy with wierd requests...*

omfg i am gonna spend one day in my xmas break and put up my web -- seriously......i'm such a lazy bum..........

u.u pretty much dead from online T_T
i found a site much like DA but i find it better :D
it's sheezyart XD XD newyays.........my acc is still the same name...http://lilymonhai.sheezyart.com
i totally forgot how livejournal works T_T
ummmmmmmm i'm almost getting 1k on SA :D happy...so i made a pic for it in pencil...too lazy to color it....
http://members.shaw.ca/alice_backup/1khit.jpg
the pic is a fan pic from houshin ENgi!!!!!!! not by me

i'm so messy --''' k i admit it T_T i cant find my RO sketch that i wanna draw ><'''''''''''' crude *goes searching*

ahahah i did my flute gr6 exam today and i think i failed XD XD XD XD XD but i feel great now since i got the exam off my back and i wont worry about flute lessons till i get bac from china XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD still cant really believe i made it to WE in skool....but i'm still kinda regreting that i joined band next year @_@ i dunno my time table now T_T hope i didnt get drop outta of art....T_T i'll freaking kill someone if i dun have art next year since i havent had any art in skool since gr 5 T_T

there's 3 more final/prov to go and i'm free from tests T_T well not really.....i have my karate test on 23rd and my driver liscence X_x i cant get anything cram in T_T so sad..........

on another note...i think my art block is finally gone.....but i wanna change my colouring a bit and etc...i wanna try to do more of muscular art than pretty ones.......of course that doesnt mean i'm gonna quit drawing shojou *right spellin??? >_<* art but i wanna draw out different things and move into more realistic drawings. I remenbered y i started drawing anime it's cuz i dun have confidence that i can draw rl pics. but i wanna try now....at least i think i'm ready T.T x.X

i think this'll be my to do list after all my exams and b4 28th which is the date i'm going bac to china:
have to do:
colour art trades/requests/gifts for DA
try to finish all the commission on Gaia
UPDATE my web T_T been so long i havent touch it a bit........
draw my manga T_T
write up storyboard for my anime/manga????
do my story???
watch anime/read manga like crazy
sleep in XD
change layout for LJ and xanga....if i know how @_@

right now i'm trying to improve my drawing skills *no duh* do more inking practices and etc...ideas just came flooding in my head like crazy lately and i wanna do all of them ^^ I might be a drawing maniac but i find it to be the only way to calm myself. if i dun draw for a while i'll become very bad tempered T_T so sad........flute calms me down too *nods* but not as much.........

on another weird factor XD no one seems to be msg me on MSN when i use my gaia name XD so weird

i think i'll stop talking now.......it's not like anyone's gonna reply to it anyways @_@

@_@ haha exams starts 2morrow hopefully i'll have time to draw after next week T_T so sad...............

man i died online...^^;;;

so wondering what's your present for mother's day? I'm cooking my mom dinner tho i dunno know how...*looks around*

i think i'm gonna rant later but i dunno.......

umm i dunno how to say it, but she is DRIVING me NUts. she's pretty nice and all, and we got the same interests, and even have the same uni we wanna go. but she's just too *dunno how to describe* she just thinks everything's easy come and easy go. she thinks that she can get into emily carr easily....
and wut annoys me the most is she keeps copying my stuff.
she said she wanna learn anime drawing, that's great right? wut's not is she copies my drawings and doodles and claim it as her own. now she's copying mangas and game pictures.
and then she said she wanna see my web site, so i let her. and wut happened the next day? she told me that she saved all the code that i put on my web and is going to use it on her own!!! u know how much hour i put on there just for the code?? not counting the design!!!!!
i dun like ppl copying my stuff. not my hwk, not my art, not my design or my codes!!! i dun like copy other ppl's work either, unless i really needs it *which is like rare* i dun like to let ppl copy my stuff so i can gain their friendship cuz i found these friendships sux, u'll just get cheated over and over again. *trust me...being like that for 7 years for me*
i just dunno a good way to tell her how i feel w/o her being misunderstood. in my eyes, she has everything. wut i dun understand is y she's doing this to me. nooo she doesnt copy other ppl's stuff, only MINE!!!!1

arg my dad canceled shaw, now i dun have a server to put up my pics ><'''''' *frustrated* plz....give me a good host that lets u do direct linking ><''''''

and i got a feb letter from gaia ^^; *traded it* i wonder wut's gonna be this time ^^;